Life is like a box of chocolates....
Hellloooooo!
Ive been busybusy, which is good. I am no longer hosting at work I am a full on server! It took them long enough!!! But anyhooo yay for me!
Im starting to get back into a routine in my life... thats when i know i have to change my pace. So I need a new job or gotta go back to school or something!! I have accually been thinking about school.. Just dont know exactly what i want to do. I´ve been giving it some serious thought.. It´s something i´ve wanted to do since i was a kid.. never got the chance. I think i want to take a shot at an acting school! It was a moment of truth when i started thinking about it, I just sat down and thought... what do i want most out of myself? and it hit me like a big semi truck!
I´m going to take a deeper look into all this of course.. see what i have to do to get somewhere. Anybody willing to give me a point in the right direction? Your advise would be greatly appreciated! So here I go on another journy of mine... It´s not going to be easy.. but hey why make it easy for myself? Never done that before so why start now! haha ohhh silly rachel...
It´s scary to think about, but thats where i get my kicks from! More people need to get out of their bloody comfort zone and get scared!!!! Its a great motivator. I hope that i have the support from the people that i love.. I´m sure i will! And hey anybody that tries to knock me down... fuck em! I´ll go all crazy on their asses! haha naaah..
In with the good... out with the bad...!
peace
Ive been busybusy, which is good. I am no longer hosting at work I am a full on server! It took them long enough!!! But anyhooo yay for me!
Im starting to get back into a routine in my life... thats when i know i have to change my pace. So I need a new job or gotta go back to school or something!! I have accually been thinking about school.. Just dont know exactly what i want to do. I´ve been giving it some serious thought.. It´s something i´ve wanted to do since i was a kid.. never got the chance. I think i want to take a shot at an acting school! It was a moment of truth when i started thinking about it, I just sat down and thought... what do i want most out of myself? and it hit me like a big semi truck!
I´m going to take a deeper look into all this of course.. see what i have to do to get somewhere. Anybody willing to give me a point in the right direction? Your advise would be greatly appreciated! So here I go on another journy of mine... It´s not going to be easy.. but hey why make it easy for myself? Never done that before so why start now! haha ohhh silly rachel...
It´s scary to think about, but thats where i get my kicks from! More people need to get out of their bloody comfort zone and get scared!!!! Its a great motivator. I hope that i have the support from the people that i love.. I´m sure i will! And hey anybody that tries to knock me down... fuck em! I´ll go all crazy on their asses! haha naaah..
In with the good... out with the bad...!
peace
wow been way too long!
Ok so i havent blogged for way too log, so much has happend!
I guess i´ll give you the run down!
So I ended up not being able to sell most of my stuff, I had to give the majority away! oh well..
So I had an awesome going away party! All the people that matter most were there, there were many shots and many tears. It was really hard for me and im sure for my friends too.
I just want to say that i really miss all of you and i´ll make sure i get my ass out there soon!
So yeah It took me a while to get a job. For the first month and a bit i had nothing!!! I worked at a place called ashbury´s for a week. That was cool!
Then after christmas me and my friend heather were talking and decided that i should come out and live on her floor down in vancouver! This way i could get a job out here and not have to commute!
So i did that and it took me about another month and a half to finally find a job! So i'm working at white spot. Still trying to find a second job because there is no way i can support myself on minumum wage... as many of you know!
i'm getting a little ahead of myself here! In early january i went out to kelowna to see my soul sista stacie!! It was awesome to see her again and caleb too!
After i came back, my friend matt.. who i hadn't seen since the 6th grade was having a show downtown and said that i should come!!
So i did and then after the show we all got to talking, I met curtis (again) havent seen him since 6th grade either. And we hit it off pretty good and i ended up going back to maple ridge with al these crazy guys and had an awesome night! So me n curt started hanging out a lot and it turned into something amazing!! :)
but unfortunatly... the story of my life... he was going to australia in march! It´s not been easy as all of my friends know.. but this will hopefully make me a stronger person and in the end... i know he´s coming back. I just want to say to my friends who have been there for me, and helping me up when i´m down, you guys are amazing!
Since then i´ve been just working and living life paycheck to paycheck, but hey it´ll get better right!
I´m looking around for a place to live right now, theres a lot of places out there and hopefully i will find a good one!
So I guess life has been good, i´m just trying to survive like we all are! It´s been hard not really having many friends.. i feel really alone sometimes. I just need to get out there and meet new people!!
Well I will try and keep you all up to date n stuff! and send some good vibes my way! i need all the luck i can get! :)
I guess i´ll give you the run down!
So I ended up not being able to sell most of my stuff, I had to give the majority away! oh well..
So I had an awesome going away party! All the people that matter most were there, there were many shots and many tears. It was really hard for me and im sure for my friends too.
I just want to say that i really miss all of you and i´ll make sure i get my ass out there soon!
So yeah It took me a while to get a job. For the first month and a bit i had nothing!!! I worked at a place called ashbury´s for a week. That was cool!
Then after christmas me and my friend heather were talking and decided that i should come out and live on her floor down in vancouver! This way i could get a job out here and not have to commute!
So i did that and it took me about another month and a half to finally find a job! So i'm working at white spot. Still trying to find a second job because there is no way i can support myself on minumum wage... as many of you know!
i'm getting a little ahead of myself here! In early january i went out to kelowna to see my soul sista stacie!! It was awesome to see her again and caleb too!
After i came back, my friend matt.. who i hadn't seen since the 6th grade was having a show downtown and said that i should come!!
So i did and then after the show we all got to talking, I met curtis (again) havent seen him since 6th grade either. And we hit it off pretty good and i ended up going back to maple ridge with al these crazy guys and had an awesome night! So me n curt started hanging out a lot and it turned into something amazing!! :)
but unfortunatly... the story of my life... he was going to australia in march! It´s not been easy as all of my friends know.. but this will hopefully make me a stronger person and in the end... i know he´s coming back. I just want to say to my friends who have been there for me, and helping me up when i´m down, you guys are amazing!
Since then i´ve been just working and living life paycheck to paycheck, but hey it´ll get better right!
I´m looking around for a place to live right now, theres a lot of places out there and hopefully i will find a good one!
So I guess life has been good, i´m just trying to survive like we all are! It´s been hard not really having many friends.. i feel really alone sometimes. I just need to get out there and meet new people!!
Well I will try and keep you all up to date n stuff! and send some good vibes my way! i need all the luck i can get! :)
Been a while..
So i haven´t blogged for a while, and it´s time for a new update! yay!
Well things are moving along quite nicely, i´m sorting out my stuff! I now have the clothes that i will be taking with me including shoes and bags too!
I still have a shit load to sell!
I have to do a major clean up in a bit because new renters want to take a look at the place tomorrow... oh what fun!
I found out that i cant take my beautiful coffee maker... makes me sad.
I will be taking my bass of course, like no way i´m selling that! But i have to sell my amp... blah! oh well
My last days of work are coming around too, which is wierd! But we´ll have a kick ass party!!!
josh will be here pretty soon about a month and a half, and we are totally going to flip holland upside down! hehehe!
I´ve planned this whole trip thing to amsterdam, it´ll be crazy, i just hope i wont die on saturday night because i have to work the friday, and that´ll be my last night so it might get crazy!!!
I´m kinda bored though these days, i have a lot to do but not really.. i know that doesnt really make any sence.. whatever!
Well i gotta get going!
I´ll blog ya later
xoxo
OMG!!!!!!!!
So i met an olypic gold medalist last night! woohooooo!
And she let me hold it! SO AWSOME!!!
its sooooo heavy!
i just wanted to let everybody know that! :D
not really in the mood to write anything more!!
xo
p.s. oh ya my friend michelle is leaving for Paris on friday.. :( and we´re having a party tonight.. but it´s the last night to see her.. i´m so sad to see her go! but glad she´s following her heart! mucho respecto!!!!
And she let me hold it! SO AWSOME!!!
its sooooo heavy!
i just wanted to let everybody know that! :D
not really in the mood to write anything more!!
xo
p.s. oh ya my friend michelle is leaving for Paris on friday.. :( and we´re having a party tonight.. but it´s the last night to see her.. i´m so sad to see her go! but glad she´s following her heart! mucho respecto!!!!
day 2!!!!!
Well.... my legs are just a wee bit sore! hehe
i want a cigarette... but at the same time i dont.. wierd! I guess it helps that my family doesn't smoke!
i have sooo much to do still, my first priority is selling all my stuff i guess, i just hope i can bring my senseo coffee maker!!!!! it's so pretty!! hehe and of course it makes great coffee!!
So if anybody that lives in holland needs furniture, a scooter or just random crap let me know!
i told my ex-bestfriend what was on my mind, the fact that i think my ex-boyfriend is a pedofile, and more of course.. come on she's 17 and he's almost 30! i guess i wasn't young enough for him!! hehe
oh well life must move on and i'm ready for it now!
and on top of this stuff.. i am trying to get a clear image of what i want my tattoo to be like simple but funky like me i think :P haha no way there isn't anything simple about me! :D
blaaah still hacking up my lungs!! so grosssss!
i guess this is it for now!
xoxoxoxoxo
i want a cigarette... but at the same time i dont.. wierd! I guess it helps that my family doesn't smoke!
i have sooo much to do still, my first priority is selling all my stuff i guess, i just hope i can bring my senseo coffee maker!!!!! it's so pretty!! hehe and of course it makes great coffee!!
So if anybody that lives in holland needs furniture, a scooter or just random crap let me know!
i told my ex-bestfriend what was on my mind, the fact that i think my ex-boyfriend is a pedofile, and more of course.. come on she's 17 and he's almost 30! i guess i wasn't young enough for him!! hehe
oh well life must move on and i'm ready for it now!
and on top of this stuff.. i am trying to get a clear image of what i want my tattoo to be like simple but funky like me i think :P haha no way there isn't anything simple about me! :D
blaaah still hacking up my lungs!! so grosssss!
i guess this is it for now!
xoxoxoxoxo
Big Plans
So i thought instead of sending a billion seperate messages n stuff, i could just blog it!
A lot has changed for me since i came back from canada. So it took me a total of 17 hours to finally sit down and relax on my couch! I was sitting there waiting for my best friend to come over, and i realised that this wasn't my home anymore. I don't think that is a feeling i have ever had in my life.. to come back to your house and not feel at home. So i started to think, and i made a loose plan in my head that i am going back to Canada. But i thought maybe i should just let it sink in for a few days or weeks. And having done that my will to go back to my birth country is even bigger!!! so friends and family.. here's the news you've all been waiting for (drum roll please) I am moving back to canada!!! yaaaay! I don't know for how long but hey i'm just going to go with the flow!
So going back to the moment where i was waiting on my couch for my best friend, knock knock, she's here! big hug and a kiss and we sat doen to talk about stuff! and i could see on her face something wasn't right. And here it came...'Rachel, i need to tell you something' i knew exactly what she was going to say. it's wierd when you can predict whats going to happen, and you know it ain't good. ' Martin and me (martin my ex) got togeher when you were in Canada' pause.... oh ya i sorta expected that!
This extent of my anger goes beyond anger itself.
At first i was ok with it i had just been home for 10 minutes!!!!! Then i lt it sink in and realised i wasn't ok with it! I started counting the times that i have had 'best friends' do this to me. and every single time i have just rolled over on my back! This time is different no way am i going to put up with this!
So i took a stand for my self! i don't want poisonous people in my life anymore!
slowly i am weeding out the bad seeds in my life and cleansing myself. the best thing i could ever have done! so when i get to Canada i will be free of feeling like i have to please everybody, everyday of every minute!
I am now a non-smoker! all of 3 days! sick as a dog... but i guess it will pay off! hehe
My mum and i are going to go for a run after we've had some coffee and food! to get back in to shape! EVERYDAY!!!
I'm so excited to start this new chapter in my life. Im DONE with all this bullshit i've been putting up with my whole life. I am going to stand up for myself and tell people no!
I know in Canada i will be surrounded by loving people like my family, and never to forget my soul sister, also of course some new friends that i have made and most definately the old ones!
So peoples here is the first of my many blogs! I will keep you updated on my plans and things!!! I can't wait to get to Canada!!!!!!!!!!!!
xoxoxoxo
A lot has changed for me since i came back from canada. So it took me a total of 17 hours to finally sit down and relax on my couch! I was sitting there waiting for my best friend to come over, and i realised that this wasn't my home anymore. I don't think that is a feeling i have ever had in my life.. to come back to your house and not feel at home. So i started to think, and i made a loose plan in my head that i am going back to Canada. But i thought maybe i should just let it sink in for a few days or weeks. And having done that my will to go back to my birth country is even bigger!!! so friends and family.. here's the news you've all been waiting for (drum roll please) I am moving back to canada!!! yaaaay! I don't know for how long but hey i'm just going to go with the flow!
So going back to the moment where i was waiting on my couch for my best friend, knock knock, she's here! big hug and a kiss and we sat doen to talk about stuff! and i could see on her face something wasn't right. And here it came...'Rachel, i need to tell you something' i knew exactly what she was going to say. it's wierd when you can predict whats going to happen, and you know it ain't good. ' Martin and me (martin my ex) got togeher when you were in Canada' pause.... oh ya i sorta expected that!
This extent of my anger goes beyond anger itself.
At first i was ok with it i had just been home for 10 minutes!!!!! Then i lt it sink in and realised i wasn't ok with it! I started counting the times that i have had 'best friends' do this to me. and every single time i have just rolled over on my back! This time is different no way am i going to put up with this!
So i took a stand for my self! i don't want poisonous people in my life anymore!
slowly i am weeding out the bad seeds in my life and cleansing myself. the best thing i could ever have done! so when i get to Canada i will be free of feeling like i have to please everybody, everyday of every minute!
I am now a non-smoker! all of 3 days! sick as a dog... but i guess it will pay off! hehe
My mum and i are going to go for a run after we've had some coffee and food! to get back in to shape! EVERYDAY!!!
I'm so excited to start this new chapter in my life. Im DONE with all this bullshit i've been putting up with my whole life. I am going to stand up for myself and tell people no!
I know in Canada i will be surrounded by loving people like my family, and never to forget my soul sister, also of course some new friends that i have made and most definately the old ones!
So peoples here is the first of my many blogs! I will keep you updated on my plans and things!!! I can't wait to get to Canada!!!!!!!!!!!!
xoxoxoxo
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